Authenticity

I just put Lucy down for a nap, and it should be a pretty good one. We just got in from a walk in the snow and she should be pretty pooped from the cold air. I even kept her up for a ful 4 hours between naps!

It's snowing and from my bedroom window, it looks so pretty! I should be cleaning the house right now, as it's a frightful mess. However, I need some time for me.

I've been thinking about me all day. That might sound a little self-centered, and it kind of is. They say motherhood changes you. Maybe it does, but I haven't had a second to think about it! I've been running nonstop for 7 months! A person can change a lot in 7 months, but I haven't even thought about it. I guess I really should, though. When people don't think about the fact that they've changed, they forget to look up and when they finally do, they've been changing for years and years and have no idea who they are anymore.
Andrew knows who I am. He watches me so closely, and he reminds me of what I like and what I don't like. But when you spend all day covered in someone else's bodily fluids, you tend to forget. Lucy keeps me SO busy. I don't even know what the newest songs are. I doubt I'd like them anyway...
Let's see. I like: Laughing in bed with Andrew after we brush our teeth, chocolate and milk, Dr. Karev from Grey's Anatomy, sunshine, soft blankets, the coffeehouse rock channel, driving on long car trips, inspecting Mom's house after I've been gone too long, talking to Nina on the computer, Suzzy's lovin', Lucy's smile, making dinner for friends, waking up to clean dishes next to the sink, Andrew and Lucy's secret-telling, the look on Andrew's face when he wakes me up on the couch, sharing a milkshake, stretching in bed when I get to sleep in, cookies, checking the mail, payday, holding hands in Church, roses, surprises and holiday commercials.
I hate: bad drivers, people who don't hold the door, cold showers, wet snow, cold dinners, re-runs, trashy women, drama and congestion. (Head congestion.) I also hate having cramps.
I'm tired of feeling like I've wasted a day. I've decided to take a step back from the message board I moderate. I'll still be moderating, but unless Lucy is dead asleep, I'm not posting on it. I have a life to live, a family to care for and a little girl who's growing up too fast. I need to put others first and take care of my own before I take care of the rest of the world. I'd rather have a clean house and a secure daughter than a recent avatar.

I have pics to post of Lucy in the snow, but I'll have to do that later. She really didn't know what to think! Oh, she learned how to whistle this morning. It was by far the cutest thing I've ever seen! I'm going to try to get it on video, but she really only does it when she's playing alone, which makes it very tricky! She ALSO took two crawling steps yesterday, but Andrew doesn't believe me. Suzzy was there, and she swears it's true! :-)

Tuesday Again.

Well, Lucy just went down for her morning nap, and I cleaned hte house early this morning, so I have a little time to relax! She slept so well last night! She ate at 1:30, and that was it! Night before last was great too- with any luck this little spurt will last awhile!

We got a lot of snow! I think we got about 2 inches. I mean, it's not a LOT, but we haven't had any since March. weather.com says we're supposed to have 3-5 inches tomorrow, so I'm thinking we'll have about 7 inches or so.

I'm eating a Special K Protein Bar. Interesting. It tastes pretty good, but has a weird consistency.

Well, I guess I'll...take a shower now. I really have a very quiet day today. I'm going to finish Lil's blanket and play with my kiddo. However, we've read all of her books already! Andrew took the car, so hopefully we can come up with something fun to do later. Maybe we'll make a new tent or cook something.

Chatty Baby!

Here's Lucy yakking with Mommy about this and that!

So Proud of Our LuLu!

Monday Already??

Where did our weekend go??? It's 6:40am and Miss Lucy is in her bed making noise. The wind was horrible all night long, so Andrew just left in the Escape, just in case the snow picks up and makes driving dangerous. And I have no milk.
Lucy slept SO well last night! We geared up for a night of crying it out, and the little angel went down at 6:30 and slept til 4. I nursed really well at 4, and she slept til 6:30! Go figure...why can't she just commit oneway or the other?

Let's see. Oh, our weekend. Friday was very nice. Oh BOY was it! I dropped Lucy off with Kristy and Xander, and she played happily until her daddy could pick her up after work. I had a very nice, quiet afternoon by myself. I worked on my cookies for the cookie contest, and Clarissa came over around 4. Andrew and Lucy got home around 4:30, and Lucy was all tuckered out! It was so cute seeing her strapped into Andrew's little red truck, snoozing to John Lee Hooker and riding with Daddy. Brian came over, and the 4 of us hung out and ate pizza. We played Apples to Apples FAR too late, and crashed around midnight.
On Saturday, we went to the Christmas parade and dropped my cookies at the cookie contest. The Storybook Holiday was just adorable. Since we live right in the middle of it, Lucy was able to get her naps in and still enjoy the day. Kristy, Erik and Xander came up for awhile to enjoy the fun. At 6:30, we went to City Place for the Christmas Tree Lighting Ceremony and the cookie contest awards. It was a very nice ceremony. It's so nice living in this tiny little town. There was a little band and the Home and Garden Club made enough cookies for everyone to have cookies and hot cocoa after the tree was lit. They had a couple of nice prayers for a safe Christmas and the reason for the season, etc. A cute little boy lit the trees, and Santa came to visit.
I won the Kid's Choice Award, which was neat. They awarded me with an apron that says "Frostburg Storybook Holiday Cookie Contest Winner" and a $10 gift certificate to the Princess Restaurant. Now, $10 to any other restaurant wouldn't be nearly enough, but at the Princess, that's enough for a nice lunch for two and good conversation.
On Sunday we had a nice, relaxing day. We tag-teamed napping all morning and went to Mass at 12. After that we went to the Lang house for football. The guys babysat and I went to the mall to buy a new dress! I found the perfect one and I'm very happy!
We had a quiet night at home last night. We watched "Pictures of Hollis Woods" and I worked on a shirt. It was nice.
This morning...has already been very busy! Andrew is off to work in the Escape because we're having a windstorm and there's ice coming down now. Ugh. In other news, Lucy has started pulling up to standing! Wow! I'm a little blown away- I wasn't expecting it THIS soon, but I'm proud of her! No wonder she hasn't slept in a week! Last night was MUCH better, and I think this week will be much better for all of us!